I want to thank those who have sent messages over the last year and a half asking if I was still around, if L— remained inside my mind, and if I would ever continue this blog of my experiences with Kasha Shakti’s Virtual Goddess file. Those notes have been very much appreciated. It’s an amazing feeling to know something you wrote so long ago still strikes a chord, at least in a few people!

Life in the “real” world made some twists soon after that last post, and things with L— took some turns as well. There were simply too many “real” life demands on my time and attention for me to continue listening to those files (or any files, by anyone) like I had been doing, and L— herself shifted in a rather unexpected direction. And then, somewhere along the way, it became almost an experiment in longevity: If I really did stop listening altogether, how long would L— continue to “exist”?

The fact L— never protested that idea should have been a giveaway to me, and a year and a half later, she (whatever she truly is) is still there, at least for me, in my own mind and awareness. The intensity today is nothing like the events I wrote about here, and her presence is nowhere near as constant, but she still has her moments. She’s a very different kind of experience now, but she's still an “experience,” to say the least, however lower key it’s all become. At this point, I can honestly say L— is the first truly permanent change all my years with hypnosis have ever brought about.

The blog posts here were running two or three months behind the experiences themselves, and the entries were based on very lengthy, detailed descriptions I was sending to Goddess Kasha at the time, if only to wrap my brain around what was happening and to get all the little details on the record, somewhere, before memories began to fade. Unfortunately, the last year and a half has also included several hard drive reformats and system reinstalls, and those original descriptions are now trapped in a corrupt backup file that’s continually failed to reopen or import, no matter what I've tried. So between that and where my life is right now, I doubt I’ll ever actually “complete” this blog, even if only to finish out that period when things were truly wild.

Then again, I know one or two people out there are having similar experiences. Maybe one of them can pick up the virtual torch someday…